All and nothing

Having it all

And yet having nothing

An empty face

A mask

Hiding all the pain away

Beneath that painted smile

The façade a beautiful lie

While the inside is grotesque

Marred beyond repair

A ghastly sight

That makes me want

to look away

Wonder what cleansing rituals

Will soak up the muck

And leave me feeling clean

Wonder what penance out there

Will clean out the inner self

And make me smile again

MVJ Simon 2011

All is well

When I looked away

I lost a chance

Of a future

that might have been

When I paused mid way

The moment just passed

And I lost you there

Wonder how it would’ve been

When I chickened out

Lost courage

At times

when I should have led

I lost so much

That I don’t know

And probably never

will know

Was it just a glance

An unspoken word

A timely hug

Or one single moment?

There’s so much I lost

That I don’t know I lost

I keep assuring self

That all is well

M V J Simon 2011

Caught

Between the real and the dream

I find an existence

And question my sanity

Between life and living

I find breathing space

And wonder, am I alive?

Between lies and truth

I seek what is comforting

And think that it is right

Between evil and goodness

I chose the one that is fun

And I am so sorry

Between now and eternity

I fill up moments with work

While life ticks by. 

MVJ Simon 2011